The Vampire Recipe, Part 2

Sorry it's taken this long - helping daughter #2 move into a new house. And other excuses, none of them very relevant.  Anyway, here's the ending. Comments appreciated.


 A lamp beside the sofa clicked on, as did a hum from outside.  Before she could position herself to jump past him through the front door, he slipped inside, carrying more wood in one arm and a shotgun in the other.

He shrugged at her questioning stare.  “It’s loaded to bring down as many of them as I can, just in case.  They’re weaker, if they came looking for your chocolates.  Can’t stop them, not yet, but give it time, and I can.”

“I don’t think so.”

Stacking the wood in the fireplace, Barrett remained silent.  Working methodically, he pretended he hadn’t heard her.

“Look, I get it.  You know they want me to cook up the chocolates.  Let me do it.  Lure them into a trap.  Use me for bait.”  The idea came to her as she was speaking.

“No.”  He didn’t turn around as he struck a match.  “They’ll take you before I can stop them.”

“What’s the one way you can be sure they’ll all die?” Grandpere never said a word about killing them, only that she had a duty to provide their protective chocolates.

That got his attention.  Turning to her, he seemed to be weighing his answer. 

“You may as well tell me.  I’m the only person in this room who knows what you do.”  Sitting on the sofa, she tucked her legs under her and drew one of the blankets over her lap.  It hid the bloodstain on the knees of her jeans.

Rising, he left the fire alone to kneel before her and take her hands in his.  “Give me the secret ingredient.  Let me make the chocolates.  I’ll get them when they come to your kitchen.”

“How?  How will you kill them?”

Looking into the growing flames in the fireplace, he shook his head.  “Fire.  Fire’s the only way to make sure, when they’re vulnerable.  It’ll mean burning down your business, but . . . .”

 “What about the other shops around mine?”

“I’ll make sure the fire department is nearby.  Several fire trucks.”

“How will you get out?  Alive, I mean.”  She couldn’t imagine the violence it would take to start a fire of such magnitude it would destroy the creatures who’d scared her grandpere for his entire life. He had to be planning on a bomb.

“I take my chances. That’s what I do.  Tell me how they know the blood chocolates are ready.  I’ll make them.”

She thought of her grandpere’s arms, scissored with scars.  His legs.   His torso. He’d cooked the chocolates too long.

 “You don’t have the one crucial ingredient.”

“Tell me what it is, and I’ll make sure it’s never manufactured again.”

Her smile didn’t reassure herself or him.

“It’s my blood.  My family line carries the immunity they crave. So you’ll have to kill me to end the blood chocolates.  But I think you already knew that.”

* * * * *

Barrett stared at her as if memorizing her face.  “It was the only answer.  We didn’t know for sure it was the family line, since there’re other vamps around the world who seem to have immunities we can’t crack.”

“What took you so long? Why are you just getting to Wrightsville?”

He looked away.  “We didn’t know about your grandfather or your family, not until recently when a flurry of killings that started out in the serial murders section got transferred to me.  They were all vamp murders, disguised to look like serial killings.  This clan’s clever.  Until today and your friend.”

“If you knew they were in Wrightsville, why didn’t you try to stop them?”  She wanted to be able to blame someone, anyone for Allis’s death.

“I’m not clairvoyant, if that’s what you’re implying. I was following a hunch.  Wrightsville hasn’t had a vamp killing in hundreds of years.”

 “Until me, my family has always done its duty.”  Why hadn’t she believed her grandpere’s tales?  “I must do mine now.  It’s the only way.”

 “Dammit.”  Sitting beside her, Barrett lifted the afghan covering her feet and began rubbing the sole of her feet with slow, practiced circles.  “He had no right to keep you in the dark.”

“Who, grandpere?”  She felt herself relaxing under his ministrations despite her fervent hopes she’d grow to hate this man who seemed to know a hell of a lot more than she did about her own family.

“No, my boss.  My late boss.  He should have taken you in when it was clear there’d been a shift in the dynamics.  It’s a clear indicator of, um, unrest.  That’s a good enough word.  Didn’t take me twenty-four hours to find you, he should have done it when your grandfather died.”

“Why would he?  And who is he, exactly?”

Barrett sighed, shutting his eyes. “Head of Paranormal Activities at the FBI.  It’s coordinated with the military, and we share offices and intel. We’ve systemically run a boatload of weird shit to ground and eliminated it in the bigger, urban areas, where we thought they hunted exclusively. Then Will, head of my division, got himself killed. Lunch for the beasties.  Got tired of riding the desk and his laptop, wanted a little excitement to wake him up.  He didn’t wake up, not after the master vamp in a tiny fish camp town in South Carolina finished him off.”

He sounded more bitter than angry, Langie decided.

 “Who’s in charge now?”

“Three guesses.”  He lifted one eyebrow and nodded in the affirmative.

“Can you stop them?”  She was afraid to hear his answer.

“Yes. If you’ll let me do what I do, and stay out of your kitchen.  Let me see your arms.”

She knew why he asked.  She’d seen her grandpere’s arms just that once, and wondered as a child why he was ribboned with scars.  Rolling back the sleeves of her sweater, she brandished her clear skin.

“They can smell your blood.  It’s like the most expensive perfume.  There’s a way to duplicate the scent.  At least, that’s what my techies tell me.  We fool them into thinking they’re getting their magic candy.”  His smile lacked humor.

“And if they aren’t fooled?  Then what?”  She had a vague idea that Allis would be just the start of a campaign to get her to do their bidding. Naw, nothing vague about it.

“We punt.”  Taking his jacket off, he slung it over a chair and bent to strike a match to the kindling in the stone-faced fireplace.

“Merciful heavens.”

“That’s about the extent of it.”  A wry smile, and his face transformed.  “You in?”

“Do I have any choice?”

“Sure.  Get out of Dodge.  Drive until the wheels fall off.  Don’t use your real name, get a new identity, and get blood transfusions every chance you get.  Don’t donate blood.  Pray they don’t find you.”

Swallowing hard, Langie tried to envision life somewhere else.  “What, no plastic surgery?”

Barrett thought a minute. “Might not be a bad idea. Change your looks, wear tons of strong perfume.”

“I was kidding.”  She couldn’t run. No way.  If she helped him, maybe they’d win.  Allis’s death surrounded her like a blanket smothering her face.  “Those bastards have to pay for what they did. Not just to Allis, but to my grandfather. To my family.”

A black hue swept through his eyes.  “Let’s get started, then.  I have my kit in the car, I’ll be back.”

He hurried through the door to the outside as if afraid she’d try to slip out with him, slamming it shut behind him so quickly he almost caught his shirt tail. 

Kit?  What the heck what he have in mind?  What did she know about him, anyway?  He hadn’t shown her any ID, she hadn’t asked for it, to be honest, but still. . . .  For all she knew, he was one of them. Her stomach roiled.  He’d recognized her by the scent of her blood in the bite mark she’d made on her hand.

God, how stupid could she be?  If he was one of them, though, he’d have killed her by now. Or at the very least, forced her to make some blood chocolates.  Only she knew the process took a long time – days and days of preparation, then they had to age sufficiently for their efficacy to kick in.

Shutting the door and locking it behind him once again, Barrett dropped a large metal briefcase on the sofa beside her.  “Didn’t see anything out there. We may be safe, but I’m not going to count on it.”

Swallowing hard, Langie edged towards the fireplace and its brass poker.  “So why’d you light the fire? I thought you didn’t want any signs we’re here.”

“It’s only a couple of hours until dawn.  They’ll have to find their nests, go to ground.  We have today to figure this out, then it’s war.  I know how they operate.”  Bent over the box, he began setting up a laptop and a case of syringes on the coffee table.  “Got an internet card, I can analyze your blood with this contraption here and send the info to Washington.  It shouldn’t take long for us to have an answer, they’ve been working on one for the others.”

“You mean the other humans forced to give the vamps what they want?”

He nodded. “It’s mutation of some sort that’s hardwired into your DNA.  Every new generation gets ferreted out by the bloodsuckers.  Allis bought you some time. Not much, but a little.”  He fiddled with the laptop and brought up a screen. “Now we’re cookin’, no pun intended.  I’m connected with the lab in Texas.”

Despite the nice fire crackling away, Langie shivered.

He didn’t raise his eyes from the computer’s screen.  His dark hair, longish at the nape of his neck, curled over the collar of his black shirt.  Dark clothes, dark man, she thought.  Why was he hiding in this cabin if he was one of the good guys?  Where was his white stallion?  Why hadn’t he spirited her away to the castle with FBI agents guarding the moat to keep her safe?

“I need a sample. You’re the one with the magic potion.”  He shrugged.  “It won’t hurt. At least, not much.”  Flicking the end of a syringe, he gestured for her to give him her arm.

“What’re you going to do with it? And why do you have a zillion more of those long needles in there?” She gestured at the box.

“Run it thru this scanner on this,” he held up a disk. 

Silence surrounded them as she eyed the needle, until a soft cry sent her heart thumping peanut butter. “Do you hear that?” she asked.

“No, what?”  Cocking his head, he glanced at the door. “What did you hear?”

“I’m not sure. The wind on the roof? We’re surrounded by pines.  Could be needles falling.”

Rising, she pulled the afghan around her shoulders and walked to the door, pressing her ear to the wood. Her hearing, always acute, sharpened even more.  “There it goes again.”

This time she heard it more clearly. “A voice. I hear someone calling my name. Come here, listen!”

“Impossible.  You’re hallucinating.”

“Langie.”  A woman’s voice penetrated the logs.  “Langie, open up, I need you.”

“God!  Did you hear that? It’s Allis!  Open the door!”  Fumbling with the locks, Langie tried to get them to work, but they resisted her tugging and jerking. “What’s wrong with them, I can’t get them to open?”

“That’s because I used magic.”  Laughing, Barrett rocked back on his heels and watched Langie gape at him. “Kidding, what did you think?”

“I think I want you to open this door. There’s someone out there calling me.  My God, it is  Allis.”

“Can’t be.  Come here, let me get the sample.”  He gestured with his hand for her to turn around, and she felt a tug in her muscles so hard she almost fell to the floor. If she’d been made of steel bones and metal muscles, the magnet pulling her outside couldn’t have exerted a stronger pull.

Fear gave her the courage to grab the door handle and hang on.  “Stop it,” she cried.  “Open the door for Allis!”

Rushing to her side, Barrett locked her in his arms. “They’ll take you before you can blink.”

She’d never felt worse in her life.  If she didn’t find Allis, she’d die.

“I have to go!  Can’t you feel it?  It’s going to rip me apart.  My God, help me!”  She could feel her organs straining at her muscles, her skin stretching taut as a drum.

“Water, it’s the only way.  Let go, Langie, hang onto me.” 

The power pulling her would have smashed her through the wood logs if Barrett hadn’t grabbed her up in his arms and run with her into a back room.  Locking the door behind them while he held her, he dropped her in an old-fashioned porcelain tub and cranked the handles.  Cold water poured over her feet as Barrett forced her body to stay in the tub.  The pain inside her crescendoed until she thought she’d explode with it.  The water rose slowly, soaking her legs, then her hips, and finally, up to her chest, making breathing easier.

As the cold water poured over the edge of the tub, soaking Barrett as well, he turned off the taps.

“Now take a deep breath and submerge yourself.  Stay under the water as long as you can before you take your next breath.  The water will block their calling you.”

The water seeped away the pain slowly. She’d kill herself before she would take any more of this agony.  Gulping in a big chunk of air, she slid her head under the water again and again.  Barrett’s arms never left her shoulder and stomach, forcing her deeper. 

Only as the top of her head disappeared into the cold water did the pain ease up.  She could feel the fire inside her slowly dying.  Was this how it felt when you passed away, she wondered?  Was it from the fire into the ice? 

* * * * *

“We’ve got to get away from here.  They’re calling to your blood.”

“As if I didn’t know.”  Pale with pain, Langie kept her hands snapped tight against her ears.  “Now I know how the sirens got the upper hand.”

“Can you stand it long enough to get in the Jeep?  I’ll drive like a bat out of hell away from here.”  He was soaked to the skin as well and shivering almost as violently as she.

“If you can’t get me free, just kill me.”  She meant every word. “And don’t let the bastards find me before the bugs do.”

“Charming image, but I get the point. Okay, let’s get you out of here.”  Locking his arms under hers, he helped her sit up in the full tub.  After she stood, sluicing water, he lifted her into his arms and hurried to the front door. 

Trembling against him, Langie concentrated on breathing.  If she could focus on something else, maybe the pain would ease up a sec.  So she chose the hair at the bottom of his neck, where it veeed into his chest. Counting one, two, three, four. Over and over again as she stared at each and every hair. 

“Ready?”

She nodded. “I’m freezing.”

“It’s going to get colder.”

The wind struck her like icy needles through her wet clothing as he opened the door.  She wondered how he managed the locks while holding her, but she was too cold to care. She blamed her frozen senses for dulling the smell thrown in her face as he hesitated on the cabin’s threshold.  When it hit her, she almost retched.

“What’s that God-awful stink?”

Silent, he pivoted three hundred and sixty degrees, as if checking every corner of the surrounding forest for enemies. "Them."

"Let’s get out of here,” she mumbled through stiff lips.

Wrenching open the Jeep’s door, he tossed her inside.  “Put on your seatbelt. It’s going to get rough.”

Fumbling with fingers made clumsy with the sub-zero temperature, she couldn’t help staring around the Jeep, searching the shadows for any signs of whatever had found the cabin. “Where is it?  The one that found us?”

“Went for reinforcement,s is my bet.”  Gunning the engine, Barrett popped the clutch.  “Hang on.”

Fishtailing, the Jeep sprang from its parking spot like a cat shocked with a cattle prod.  Gray and black shadows rippled across the windshield so quickly they made Langie feel dizzy.  She didn’t know how he could drive, the shadows in front of them were as dark as the tinted glass in a mobster’s limo.

Shifting gears, Barrett kept his foot solidly on the gas.  A shaky wobble, then Jeep righted itself.

“Pothole, don’t worry,” he reassured her. “I think we’ve outrun them.” 

“I don’t think so.”

He didn’t know what she knew.  That the vamps could bring her to them if she wouldn’t come voluntarily.  She should have told him escape was impossible, but she’d hoped her grandfather had made a mistake.  The vamps always came to him, he’d said, but tradition promised she could be summoned.

Whomp.  The Jeep shimmied as if it had been whacked with a giant sledgehammer.

When she’d tried to escape from the cabin, they must have used their power to call her.  Another whomp, and the Jeep slowed down. She felt the power jerking her like a marionette’s strings.

Spinning, the Jeep did a one-eighty, facing the direction they’d come, the engine whining as Barrett kept his foot on the gas and they went nowhere.

“What the hell?” He jerked the clutch and tried to force the Jeep to move.

“That’s what this is.  Hell.  Stay out of the way.  If I can appease them, maybe they’ll leave you alone.”  Unclicking the belt, she slid from the front seat before he could stop her.

The black shadows swarmed her like locusts on green corn.  She thought of the sunny beach, the blue blue of the sky, the sound of the front door bell at the chocolate shop. But the images wouldn't stay in her head.
 
Freezing air, colder than the bottom of a winter lake, held her in its clawed grasp. Was this death, she wondered, or a different version of hell.  In the long run, it didn't matter.
 
She was lost. No one would find her, no one living, that is, when the vampires were finished with her. The truth was as bitter as myrrh in her mouth.
 
She forced one word out, a whisper, before she let herself be taken. "Barrett."
 
He never heard her.

 

 

 

The Vampire Recipe

I've been playing with this story for years now, and it's probably going to get a new life with new monsters one of these days. But for now, I really would like comments on how it stands today. I'll post the second half of it tomorrow.  If I remember...


 

The Vampire Recipe

By Tracy Dunham

 

 

            Five o’clock closing time.  Finally.  Fall’s somber skies wrapped the old chocolate shop with a gray pall that no amount of sugar or cocoa could shake off.  Untying her pink apron, Allis hurried to the front door to pull down the shade with its red “Fresh Chocolates Tomorrow” sign. Langie would be in later to stir up a fresh batch of her creative creations, but Allis was done.  Sales today hadn’t been worth the effort to tally, but still, she put the money and receipts in the bank envelope and locked it in the drawer for Langie to pick up when she came in.

Business would pick up closer to Christmas.  This lull seemed linked to the lowering skies and bitter winds, early this year.  Normally, the bad weather waited until January to swoop in.

            Zipping up her down coat, Allis hesitated as she thought she heard a knock.  Probably just trash hitting the glass door she decided as she dug her gloves from her pockets.  Again, louder this time.  A definite rap against the glass, sending shivers down her back.  At this rate, the idiot’s hand would shatter the glass, and that would really tick off her boss.

            “Hold your horses,” she shouted, hunting for the key to the deadbolt in the cash drawer. 

            The rapping crescendoed into a frantic beating, sending the pulled canvas shade bouncing.  Fumbling with the key in her gloved hands, Allis shouted “Cut it out.  We’re closed.  Come back tomorrow.”

            Glass shards screamed through the air around her like an ice sheet sliding off a glacier. Heart pounding, Allis scrambled backwards, falling on her bottom.  Eyes shut, hands in front of her face to protect herself from the shattered door, she wished she’d left five minutes early.   

            “Don’t hurt me!  The cash is in the middle drawer behind the counter.  Take it and leave me alone,” she cried, peeping through her gloves to see three large men dressed in black.

            She’d expected them to wear masks, but their faces, cold and hard as that of the worst hardened criminal, stared at her with what she could only interpret as contempt. 

            “Where are the blood chocolates?”  The man who growled was shorter than the other two, but a dark power cloaked him. 

            “What?”  Allis thought she’d heard him wrong.  “Like I said, take the money, just leave me alone. I won’t tell anyone I saw your faces. Please.”  Her throat clogged with fear, she could barely get the words out.

            “Blood chocolates, or the town is forfeit. You know the contract.”  Swooping beside her, he knelt in the sea of shattered glass and tipped her face with one cold finger under her chin.  “I don’t know you.  Where is the chocolate maker?”

            “Langie?  She’ll . . . .”  Allis’s voice froze in her throat as the speaker touched her lips.

            “The man.  The old man.”  He removed his hand from her throat.

            “You mean Langie’s grandfather?  Dead.  Last year.  Langie took over.”

            “Is she of the blood?”

            Allis couldn’t imagine what on earth he was talking about. Nothing in her head was working correctly, and she couldn’t breathe.  Even the small cuts from the shattered glass door that dotted her exposed skin were nothing compared to the panic that thrummed through her blood.  She’d seen them.  She’d heard them speak.  She was a dead woman.

            Hanging at the back of the three was the smallest man of all.  Lifting his face from the shadows, he stared at her until she thought she was going to faint.

            “Take her.  Leave her to be a message to the chocolate maker.  This Langie will know we mean business.”

            By the time Langie arrived to make her evening’s batch of tomorrow’s business, Allis sprawled, bloodless and rag-dolled, on a bed of crushed glass.

            Her throat ripped into a gaping hole. 

* * * * *

            Fist to her mouth to stifle a scream, Evalangie Delacroix knew she’d never be able to stand knowing she’d been the cause of her best friend’s murder.  Ten years.  It’d been ten years since they’d shown up.  Her grandfather warned her they’d never leave the town alone, but Langie hadn’t believed him.  After all, his generation lived in a past that bore the burdens of superstitions and omens no one considered the slightest bit credible if they had any sense at all.  On his deathbed he’d made her swear she’d cook the blood chocolates and store them in case they came back.  To make him happy, she’d raised her hand to God, never believing for a second she’d have to make good on her promise.

            Even before he neared death, he’d told her tales about the bloodkillers who’d arrived to partake of their family recipe.  In return, they never bothered the good folk of Wrightsville County.  Not a soul lost his mortal life to the vampires.  Now, she’d broken her sacred vow to a dying man, and because no blood chocolates reposed in her store room, Allis was dead.

            The fist in her mouth tasted of her own blood.  She’d bitten through her skin to keep from screaming. Allis.  How could this pale, limp figure be Allis?

            “If you’ll step outside, I’ll see to her.”  A male voice, deep and commanding her, cracked through the horror in her head.

            Twirling, Langie jerked her cell phone out of her pocket and fumbled to open it.  She had 911 on speed dial.  Eyes blurry from tears, she couldn’t see clearly enough to even try to hit the right numbers. 

            “I was too late to save her, I’m so sorry.”  His height overshadowed her.  Wrapping her hands in his, he stopped her call.

            Langie wished she’d turned on the overhead lights, but then she’d have seen Allis even more clearly.  Better that she hadn’t. But the shadows prevented her from seeing his face clearly.  All she knew was, she’d never met this man before.

            “For the love of God, will you call the police?  Who are you, what the hell did you mean, you could have saved her?”  Langie stripped off her winter coat and spread it over Allis’ bloodless body.  Trembling, she knelt on the glass-covered floor and closed Allis’ blank eyes.

            “Are you Evalangie Delacroix?  Granddaughter of Pericles Delacroix?”

            Then he did the most extraordinary thing.  Raising her bitten hand to his nose, he sniffed her skin like a hunting dog. 

            “No need to tell me. You’re one of his kin.  Did you make the blood chocolates?”

            Words were beyond her.  How did he know about the blood chocolates? She could only shake her head in the negative.

            “Good.  Tell me how many were here?” 

            Dressed in a short leather jacket with a long dark scarf wrapped around his throat, he leaned in so closely she could smell his breath.  Coffee.  Sugar. Once more, all she was capable of was a small shake of her head.

            “Did you see them?” he demanded once again.

            Langie shook her head. Her brains felt as if they’d explode if she kept looking at Allis.

            “Look, you can’t help her. We’ve got to go.  They may be watching.” Touching her shoulder, he forced her to look at his face. Anger, concern, but mostly determination emanated from him in waves of heat.  She felt his power as if it were a blanket wrapped around her.

            “No!”  She couldn’t leave Allis alone.  This was all her fault.  “I have to make the chocolates.  In case they come back!  I promised my grandfather.”

            “That’s why you have to get out of here now.  They’ll be back, count on it.  Without your blood chocolates, they’ll lose their immunity to the only things that we can use to kill them.”

            “And if they don’t get them, they’ll kill us all.  That’s what my grandfather said.  I didn’t believe him, but now . . .” She couldn’t look at Allis without crying even harder, so she stared at the stranger.  His dark eyes.  His dark skin.  He’d come from somewhere sunny. Somewhere else where she wished she were right now.

            The sun hadn’t shone in Wrightsville for a month now.  Her skin felt sluggish and gray.

            “You believe in them?  In vampires?  I don’t.” Stunned, she stopped for a second, aware of what she was saying. “I didn’t.  But her throat.  Allis’ throat.  What would do this?  Who?  It has to be vampires.”

            “Come with me now, you’re in shock.  You need protection.”

            “Me?”  Staring at him, she realized she was biting her hand again.  “But I can stop them. It doesn’t matter what they are, they’ll stop killing if they eat the chocolates.”

            He shook her by the shoulders as if she were a child who wasn’t listening to an important warning.  “You can’t.  Don’t you see, you’re no match for whoever did this?  Believe me, Ms. Delacroix, you need to get yourself out of here. Now.”

            “You’re hurting me!”  Somewhere deep inside her, she was grateful for the ache in her shoulders, her arms.  At least she felt something other than freezing cold.

            Sirens, faint but growing closer, sounded in the street.  “Come now.  You’ll be safe with me.”  Throwing his coat over her shoulders, he hustled her through the shattered door.

            “But I have to stay. I have to tell them it’s my fault, I didn’t make any blood chocolates in case they came.”  Wailing with guilt, Langie let him pull her away from her chocolate shop. “Grandpere made me swear.  I broke an oath to the dying.  I deserve to pay.” 

There, she’d said it.  The bare truth.  Scary as it was, she’d have to forfeit the rest of her life to placate and appease the beasts her grandfather said roamed the earth with impunity because of her family’s secret recipe for blood chocolates. If she didn’t . . . she couldn’t dwell on the consequences. Her heart beating so hard she thought she’d faint, she clutched the stranger’s sleeve, swaying.

“Oh, hell with it.”  Without a by-your-leave, he hoisted her over his shoulder as if she weighed nothing. 

“Let me down!  What’re you doing?”  Kidnapped, she was being kidnapped.  Probably he was taking her so he could kill her, just as he’d killed Allis, and she’d been standing there over Allis’ body, talking to him.  Screaming, she tried to claw at his face, but her hands disappeared inside his too-long sleeves.

“Saving your life, you nitwit.  I’m a vampire killer, believe me, you don’t want to hang around here.  They’ll be back.”

 Her shivering wouldn’t stop. “They won’t kill me.  All they want is their chocolate.”

“And I’m making sure you don’t cook any.  Quit fighting, get in and buckle up.”  Swinging open the door to a battered Jeep, he dropped her in the passenger’s seat.

She didn’t know why, but she believed him.  

“Look, I still don’t believe in vamps, not really. I have to talk to the police, so whoever you are. . .”

“Barrett Allen.  Not buyin’ it, so be a good girl and hold on for the ride.”  He hopped into the driver’s seat as Langie jerked on the door handle.

“Child locks.  Buckle up and sit tight. I’m taking you someplace safe, where they won’t find you.”

She could have sworn he was amused at her antics.  “It’s a federal crime to kidnap anyone.”

“Have at it.  Oh, one problem.  I work for the Feds.  Officially.”

“Liar.”  But one more glance at his face, and she knew he was telling the truth.

Driving fast, he navigated the small streets of Wrightsville as if he’d grown up there.  Red and orange maple leaves fluttered like burning moths in the gutters as he accelerated.  Langie watched them swirl into a death spiral as they passed, wondering how frightened Allis had been at the end.  Had she known what was going to happen?  Was she in horrible pain?

“Don’t think about it.”  He reached out for her hand and gave it a quick squeeze.

“I can’t help it.  She was my friend. I needed a break, and she offered to give me a couple of hours off a few days a week.”  The lump in Langie’s throat hurt so badly she couldn’t breathe.

“They don’t care who they hurt.  What they want is all that matters to them.  Your grandfather didn’t explain them to you, did he?”  Jerking the wheel, he sent the truck lurching to the gutter on the opposite side of the street as a cat darted away from the front wheels.  “Watch out, kitty, they’ll drink anything warm and alive.”

Shivering, Langie shut her eyes, but all she saw was Allis’ pale face and blank eyes.  Better to keep them open.  Turning in her seat so she could see her kidnapper more clearly, she noticed for the first time that, on an objective level, Barrett Allen was handsome.  Too dark for her taste, but Allis liked dark men.  No, she couldn’t think of Allis in the present tense anymore.

“The police will know it’s my coat over Allis.  They’ll think I killed her.  We have to go back, so I can explain.”

“No need to explain anything to them.  They’ll burn her corpse so it can’t be made undead.  They might be a bit rusty, but they know the protocol.”

“What the hell are you talking about?”  Maybe if she kicked at Barrett, she’d be able to wrest control of the truck away from him.  Wiggling closer, she tried to decide where it would hurt the most that she could reach.

“Wrightsville’s finest.  They’ve been waiting for this moment since your grandfather died.  I’m surprised he didn’t tell you the whole story.”

“He was dying.  He didn’t have time.”  Scooting back into her original position, she figured she’d hear his delusional stories and decide what to do when the truck slowed down.  He had to run out of gas sometime. “What should he have told me?”

Another sharp curve threw Langie to the extent of her seatbelt’s reach, close to his right shoulder.  Jerking herself upright, she wondered if the heat burning through her skin came from delayed reaction to Allis’ murder, or being near Barrett.

“Later. You need protection.  When they realize you aren’t making their little treats, they’ll come lookin’.  And it won’t be pretty.”

She tried a reasonable tone of voice.  “So I’ll bake them some chocolates, they’ll go away, and everyone will be safe.”

“Until they show up again.  Or, just to play a little game, what if they decide to take you with them?  Keep you chained to the stove, so to speak?  Baking those goodies until you’re dead?”

“Then they’re out of luck.  When I die, so do the chocolates.  No one else in my family left to take over.” 

“How do you make them?”

Stiffening beside him, Langie crossed her arms on her waist and hugged herself tight.  She’d sworn over and over to her grandpere that she’d never divulge the recipe.  Never.  Not if it meant his death or hers.

“Trade secret.”

“One that keeps these vamps alive a lot longer than they should be.  How about adding a little something to kill them, while you’re at it?” 

She wanted to laugh.  “Not possible.”

“You sure?”  Clicking his headlights to their high beams, he turned onto a dirt road, cluttered with years of leaves and broken limbs, hidden between a thick copse of old grown oaks and scrub brush. 

“Look, I’m feeling better.  Thanks for getting me out of there.  I really didn’t want to have to talk to the cops about Allis, but I’m ready to go home.”

He shook his head.  “No can do. I need to keep the vamps away from you.  They’ll kill you without thinking twice.”

“No, they won’t.  They’ll never get their chocolates without me.”

“They’ll find someone else to stir up a batch.  Your family doesn’t have the market cornered.”  He swept her face quickly to gauge her reaction.

“There’s only me.  There might be others, somewhere in the world, but as far as I know, I’m it.  The recipe dies with me.”

“That’s what I’m afraid of,” he muttered as the headlamps illuminated an old cabin tucked behind huge American boxwoods.  “You don’t know what you’re doing, do you?”

He parked beside the front door and switched off the ignition. Trees crowded the cabin as if trying to hide it.

“Of course I do.  My grandpere showed me how to make them.  I just haven’t done it myself, not yet.  You’re the one who doesn’t know what you’re doing.”  Unbuckling, she braced herself to run as soon as he opened the door to let her out. 

“The sad part is, I do. It’d be so much easier to kill you.  Believe me when I say, it’s been discussed.”

The flush of heat dropped so quickly she felt frozen to her seat.  “What did you say?”

Dark eyes swept her from her waist up to her face and back again.  “You heard me.  Surely you must know that if you’re dead, the vamps in this clan are vulnerable.  They’ll be destroyed, one by one, eventually.  When all the chocolate makers are gone, the vamps won’t be able to withstand us anymore.”

“But until they are, innocent people will die.  Wrightsville with turn into a ghost town.”

“Or a town of the living dead.  They were kind to your friend, they left her to die.”

So cold.  She was freezing.  Teeth chattering, she rubbed her hands over her face, trying to feel her skin.  He was right. Grandpere warned her there were things worse than death if the vamps wanted to get really ugly. 

Opening her door, Barrett reached up and took her hands in his.  “Delayed shock.  Come on, let’s get you beside the fire.  I’ll have it going in no time.”

“Where are we?” she chattered.  “I don’t know this place.”

“Trade secret.”  He almost smiled.

She let him lead her to the door, which was locked with a series of deadbolts and an alarm that looked suspiciously new and like they belonged on an apartment in a high crime neighborhood.  No one in Wrightsville used locks like those. They didn’t need to.  Kids still rode their bikes down Main Street during rush hour, such as it was, and neighbors expected neighbors to help themselves to sugar or baking soda if they ran out in the middle of baking a cake.

“There’re blankets on the sofa, wrap up while I get the generator going.  If you know how to start a fire, have at it. Or leave it for me.”

Standing in the middle of the small room, she realized the decrepit exterior was mean to deceive.  Inside, everything smelled new, with a brightly braided rug and clean hearth adding to its welcoming feel.  No mold or musty old smells marred the cozy room. Stacks of split oak rested in a neat box to one side of the hearth.  If this were a fairy tale, she’d landed in the good fairy’s house.

But Barrett Allen possessed no fairy godmother qualities.  Before she could dart for the door, she heard the many locks snick shut.  He’d made sure she couldn’t escape.  What did he intend on doing with her?  She’d made herself more than clear – it was her duty to feed the vampires to save the town.  And he’d admitted he thought she might be better off dead than making a batch of blood chocolates. 

If he’d been going to kill her, he could have done it by now.  Slitting her throat and throwing her body over Allis’ would have been easy.  She’d been a mess. Unable to think, to act. But not anymore.  Now, her thinking was shooting down the track at a hundred miles an hour. He meant to keep her from doing what she’d sworn to do.  No way could she allow him to do that.

Jerking aside the chintz curtains beside the fireplace, she stepped back.  A solid wall lay hidden behind the fabric, the logs as thick as any in the room.  Testing the door to the other side of the room, she checked out the small bathroom.  Not a window, not a vent in sight.  Fingers poking and prodding, she sought a chink, a crack, any sign the cabin possessed another way in or out.

Only the door.  The door he’d locked to keep her in. She should be very afraid, so why wasn’t she?

* * * * *

 

James R. Corbett

It's been a while, and I apologize. Between being on vacation for eleven days and all the hustle and bustle that goes with that, I've been away from the laptop for too long. In fact, I've been champing at the bit to get to work, but something else happened to put the brakes on the manuscript.

While we were gone, a long-time friend passed away unexpectedly. James Robert Corbett was one of those people you don't run into a lot in your life. I knew him for over half the years I've been on this planet. He had eclectic tastes in everything from Japanese Samurai films to food, and we discussed them a lot. But more than those details, he was a man of faith and faithfulness, both to his church and his friends.

Many years before I married my husband, I knew Jim and his wife Sandra at church. Later, my office moved into the same building they occupied, and years later when we moved out, he took over our space. (Including the deep orange/peachy paint my associate painted the walls one year when I was on vacation. OMG.) We didn't talk much while we were at work - being very busy, both of us - but I always knew if I needed help, all I had to do was knock on his door.

When my elder daughter graduated into the "college" class in Sunday School, she got Jim as her teacher. She told me once that she'd learned more from Jim than she ever had before about the Bible and prayer. Spiritual ideas came to her naturally, and Jim knew it. He encouraged her spirituality, and for that, I will ever be grateful.

We served on the Board at church together a year ago, or a bit more. In matters of progress and changing the way things had "always been done," we were allies. I, however, liked to move more quickly, while Jim took a more measured approach in general. He was probably right all along. He also undertook to handle the music and musicians, making sure contracts were signed with top notch people, as well as keeping on top of the church's maintenance. While I spearheaded the bigger issues, like new siding, Jim made sure the lights in the parking lot worked, and the doors closed properly so they could be locked without Herculean effort. We made a good team, I think.

I will always see him in a fav photo his sister once showed me of her "three amigos." Sprawled in beach chairs, looking for all the world like fishermen who'd made the Big Catch and were now enjoying elaborating on how much bigger the fish was than in real life, Jim is grinning beside his brother-in-law and nephew, much more mischievously than the other two.

 I will miss him. We all will. Good men of faith are too few on this earth.

Feminism in a Man's World

I get emails regularly from the incendiary folks at Move On, loaded with them ole fightin' words. I am in awe of the indignation they can summon. Sometimes, it's justified. Others, well, I know there are two sides to every story, and they aren't giving the other folks a chance to get a word in edgewise. That's okay, it's their email.

However, one crossed my path this week that got me thinking. Since I've been down for the count all week with several types of unpleasantness that a lady never mentions in public (the flu, omg, kill me now!), I've been thinking when I wasn't sleeping or otherwise engaged. This email from Move On involved a federal judge in Nebraska, I believe, named Kopf, who wrote a pretty stupid blog about women lawyers and women in general in male professions. I mean, you can be a nitwit, but keep it to yourself.

However, he made one point that had my husband and me disagreeing. His diatribe included an example of a young, attractive female lawyer with "brilliant" attached to her name, who showed up in court regularly wearing short skirts up to "there," and emphasis on her ample bust in her upper body clothing. In other words, she got everyone's attention, but maybe not for the right reasons. What a shame to be thought brilliant as a lawyer, then reduced to a sex object because of one's dress.

My husband thought the judge was beyond sexist. I'm sure he is. But so are about 90% of the male lawyers I know. That's just the way it was.  To establish my bona fides on this topic, let me take you back to the dark ages when I started law school, equipped with the knowledge that my newly minted diploma from a women's college where women ran the show would serve me well. I expected to see women flooding the halls of my newest school. This was the start of something good happening for women in professions formerly restricted to men. (I couldn't attend the University of Virginia in my day, because women weren't allowed to even apply.) I'd been recruited by another prestigious law school for their first class to admit women, but I turned them down to go to my chosen university because I knew they'd started turning out women lawyers in the roaring Twenties.

Imagine my horror when I found out there'd been exactly one to two women in the classes preceding mine. And out of the 100 admitted in my first year, exactly ten were women. All top of their undergrad class. The men included lots of Vietnam air force pilot types who'd been riffed from the service as the war wound down. Imagine my lack of surprise when I took my seat in my first class that lovely fall day, and the man who sat next to me stated loudly "You know, you're taking a spot where a man should be." Only he wasn't that nice about it.

I come from a long line of strong women. Believe me, it was going to take more than that to scare me. However, by the end of the first week, five women were gone. Let's skip forward three years, I've passed the bar I took before I'd graduated, and I'm going to court with my first criminal client. I wanted trial experience, and firms back then didn't let newbies in the courtroom for years and years. A friend and I figured we were more competent than most, we could handle it. We hung out a shingle.

The judge glanced down at me, dressed in my conservative dark suit, Aigner pumps with matching briefcase my parents gave me for graduation, and announced in an off-handed manner, "Young lady, that's where the lawyer sits. Secretaries sit in the back behind the bar."

I politely told him I was the lawyer for the defendant, and he couldn't have been nicer to me from that moment on. I didn't make a big deal about it, because he had never seen me before in his courtroom, and he was invariably polite and helpful to me from that day forward. Judge Tucker was a true gentleman, albeit an old-fashioned one. I had grandfathers like him, I knew the type and knew he wasn't being mean when he told me I couldn't sit at counsel's table.

But you know what? I never dressed to emphasize my "assets," such as they were. Being tall helped when standing in side counsel in front of the judge's high bench, but that was my only physical plus in the courtroom. Never in a million years would I have worn a short skirt or a low-cut blouse to court. Kill me now at the very idea.

If you want to be seen as a professional, dress professionally. Being Southern, I was raised to know that you bought a good suit, a silk blouse, real leather accessories, and only gold or silver jewelry, all discreet and tasteful. Pearls if felt you needed their courage that day in court.  I never had a problem with being seen as anything other than a lawyer, one who wore heels and lipstick, but a lawyer first and a woman second.

So when young women now wear tight, sexy clothes to argue a case before a jury or a judge, I'm not taking their side when they get slammed as sex objects. Sorry. I worked too hard to pave the way for them, and the law is still a landmine of old world thinking in many ways.

I think my disagreement on the topic surprised my husband ( who is a staunch defender of women, being the father of two girls), but he sees my point. I'm just not going to take up cudgels for women with poor taste in clothes and the stupidity to fail to recognize they're not in the courtroom to flirt or make men drool.

Avoiding doing taxes. . .

It's amazing what-all I can find to divert my energy from pulling together our taxes. Well, maybe not amazing, just very telling.

I have carefully read a New York magazine article about a NY cop who joined S&M (and worse, much much worse) chatrooms, where he met men of similar tastes with whom he emailed detailed descriptions about killing and torturing certain women, including his wife. His wife found the emails, promptly loaded herself and her baby on a plane for her parents' home in Colorado, and called the police. The legal issue is: can a person be criminally charged and convicted for thinking and discussing repellent, illegal activity on which no action is ever taken? Accessory before the fact comes to mind as the pertinent legal charge, but if there's no "fact" to follow the "before" part, have the thought-control police acted prematurely? I'm all for setting the scene and arresting the parties as they begin their illegal behavior (sting operations are common, after all), but what if no action has ever been taken and no set date has arisen for the fulfillment of the pre-planning? What if it's all wishful thinking?

Oh Lordy, I'm sounding like a lawyer. But it's a dilemma for our society - can and should we be convicted for our evil thoughts? I tend to the side that God knows what's in your heart, and She'll handle it at the appropriate time. On the other hand (again, my lawyerly side showing its two-sides-to-every issue training), shouldn't the sickos be put out of action well before they can act? Reminds me of the Philip Dick story (and movie starring Tom Cruise) where you could be convicted before you committed any crime that the computer said you might, sometime in the amorphous future.

Catherine Deneuve was featured in another article, photographed in her 70 year-old glory, wearing a black lace teddy, black stockings, and shock of all shocks, a large tattoo in the middle of her back, between her shoulder blades. Catherine Deneuve with a tat? OMGOMGOMG. I feel as if I've missed the cool-older (ahem, cough) lady memo.

Now I really must do something about the taxes. Huge sigh. Maybe after I bake some chocolate chip cookies. . . .

Whole lotta Love...

I trekked to RIR (Richmond International Raceway) to buy tix for the April race, and look what I found. A very cool LOVE made of tires, helmets, and old fenders from wrecked cars. Had to park and hop out for a picture.

However, I was five minutes late - who closes down a box office at 5 p.m.?

December 1, 1945

In all the office renovations, I found a pile of old pictures I've never seen before. Thankfully, whoever took this picture labeled it and gave a date - December 1, 1941, at the Wardman Park Hotel in Washington, D.C. The man in the darker uniform is my father, and the woman to his right  is one of his lifelong friends, Betty White, while the next woman to his right is Annette Davis, another lifelong friend. They all grew up together in the army, dated, married other people, but through the years stayed in touch. The man to my dad's left, who didn't make it into the picture, is Jack Featherstone, another boyhood buddy, who was killed in WW II in Europe. My dad served in the Philippines, where he was born.  His VPI roommate was killed on the beaches of Normany. What's amazing about this picture is that all these young cadets, West Pointers and VPI, would enlist in the military right after Pearl Harbor, which was just days away, and they don't know what's coming.

Do any of us? 

More about the shelves. . .

They cover most of the wall space ( three doors and two windows notwithstanding), and all I can say is, FINALLY! After years of storing books in shelved closets (what was I thinking, that books are sugly wetsisters to be hidden?), all my old friends are now easily at hand. I want to start rereading them immediately. This is the upside to an office renovation. The downside is the unceasing weeding through files and files and boxes and boxes of . . .stuff. Why did I think I needed twenty highlighters? And a gross of post-its? If I survive the cleanup, I'm going to lock the door and camp out in here. I love, no, adore, the feeling of being swathed in WORDS. Can't wait to get back to work.

The bedroom closets are going to have to wait.

Movie Trivia and not so trivial

Has anyone seen "Winter's Tale?" Looking for a bit of a romantic flick, my Beloved and I bundled up and trekked through the icy temperatures to see it. I wish I could say I loved it. It's visually beautiful, Lady Sybil from Downtown Abbey (Jessica Findlay Brown) was stunning, and the premise, that there's a miracle for everyone if you can find it, is charming. Will Smith as Lucifer ("Lou" to his top henchman, Russell Crowe) steals the movie.

But my stars - who decided to cut Colin Farrell's hair in such an odd manner? It doesn't seem "period" nor is it attractive. Just odd. Distractingly odd. It was all I could see, and since he's in every scene, I wanted to grab a pair of shears and fix the floppy bangs. Rats. I really wanted to love this movie, and I feel trivial and petty complaining about something so minor, but cinema IS a visual medium.

On another note, Richard LeParmentia passed away at the age of 66, far too young. He was the Empire officer in the 1977 "Star Wars" film who mocked Lord Vader for  his "sad devotion to that ancient Jedi religion." He got an almost-strangling as payment for his lippiness, as Vader rumbles that he finds his "lack of faith . . . disturbing."  One of those seminal movie moments.  So sorry to hear about his passing.

We're heading to Roanoke for a play penned by another Hollins MFA candidate in play writing. BEN AND RITA will be performed at the Mill Mountain Theater. If it's half as good as Decision Height, we're in for a wonderful night of original theater.

And the snows came...

This has been an interesting winter. "Interesting," one of those words that could mean anything from yuck to run screaming into the fire. And since the ice gods are clearly not done with us yet, I'm about ready to drive anywhere warm. Unfortunately, the sunny weather hideaways that are my go-to places are covered with ice and snow, just like us. What is the deal with snow south of the Mason-Dixon line? Holy Moley.

I should have been writing like a fiend, but instead I cleaned and watched the Olympics. Go Jordan Brown! Emptying files, paying attention to the TV with half my brain, deciding what to toss with the other half (not the brain, the files), I found some old talks I've given about writing. I surprised myself with how astute I could be when I'm trying to convey words of wisdom, earned in the writing school of hard knocks and a million, zillion rewrites.

While some aspects of my writing have evolved, others are constant. Character, for one. Always know what your characters fear losing the most, and take it away from the get-go. The bigger the stakes, the more vested the reader will be in reading to see if the hero/heroine can survive the loss, and even conquer it.  Or not. I rewatched LIMBO at five this morning (the high winds and sleet woke me up), and it's still a stellar movie. (John Sayles, director) The Joe Gastineaux character (David Straithairn) lost a crew at sea, and it was his fault. He has nightmares about it. But he's rebuilding his life, doing a little fishing for the first time since the disaster, falling for a lounge singer with moxie.  Now he has risked the lives of his new girlfriend and her fragile daughter, and they could all die because of his culpability in the past. Wow. He lost it all once before, and now he's about to lose what's even more precious because it took all he had to move forward after his boat sank.

Watch it. It's haunting and totally different. Came out in 1999.

The Beatles live on. . . sorta

Many, many years ago (I won't say the exact number, it's too, um, many), I and a friend wanted to see the Beatles perform live. Lo and behold, a concert date in Kansas City appeared. My friend and I were wild to go. Alas, Kansas City was a ways from Ft. Leavenworth, where our fathers were stationed, and we were too young to go by bus all on our own.

Every girl should have a hero, and I have always thought of my dad that way, ever since he volunteered to drive us to Kansas City. My thirteenth year had been rough - I was a real pill and practically impossible to live with, and I knew it - so I was surprised at the offer. But he didn't back out, and so my friend and I got to see the Beatles live, although we couldn't hear much music because of the wall of screams. Screams to which we contributed in vocal-chord rending magnitude. My dad sat in the parking lot and waited for us, then drove us home, voiceless and limp with ecstasy at having seen our idols in the flesh. I have never forgotten it.

I watched Paul and Ringo on the Grammys, and while it was nice, it wasn't the same. Paul looks as if he's had a bit too much of the plastic-face syndrome, and Ringo looks like Ringo, but they aren't the Beatles without George Harrison and John Lennon. I can't watch them without feeling as if I'm betraying that adolescent ideal. I want to remember the thrill of their young, boyish faces and sly grins as they transitioned from song to song, knowing the wall of noise surrounding them made their lyrics unintelligible. They smiled through two hours of futile music, an image I'll carry with me forever.

Maybe it's nostalgia for another day and age, when "I Want to Hold Your Hand" was the number one song, instead of "You Never Take Me Downtown Anymore." Or whatever the heck that filthy song is called.

Creativity

It's not something you can teach, but you can certainly learn how to encourage creativity. I heard a news report that kids now can't stand silence - something has to be running in the background all the time. My first thought was that they couldn't stand to be alone with their thoughts. Then it came to me, that if you aren't alone with your thoughts, how can you think creatively?

Several writers I know write entire novels to a single song, playing repeatedly as they type. I tried it once, and found I was imagining the story behind the song, not the song that attracted me. Unfortunately, it wasn't the story I wanted to stick with for four hundred pages. The silence that surrounds me when I'm alone at my desk is like gold. I can't write without it.

That doesn't mean I can't write in the midst of chaos. Sometimes, the wildness around me forces me to go deeper into the quiet place in my head, and the story still comes. But those times are few and far between, I've discovered, and I much prefer the silver quietude that is so precious, I crave it.
I imagine it's visuals that draw artists and photographers. One of my children takes incredible photos - usually black and whites. I don't see what she sees as she takes out her camera, but I'm usually blown away by the end product, finally recognizing what pulled her into the picture. I love how my other daughter imagines structures, merging the practical with the aesthetic. She can create whole buildings, complete with inner lives and histories, visually.  They're talents I don't possess, but I know their source.

A rich inner life, the freedom to explore it, and the nerve to go there, are what take you down that creative path. Taking that first step into the unknown can be scary and exhilarating at the same time. Every first page of a new book makes me wonder if I'm going to belly flop off the high dive, or get in a perfect swan. The flops have been many. The perfect dive, I'm still working on. 

It's the silence that gets me there. The silence as deep as swimming underwater, holding your breath, until you have to rise to the surface and breath, or you'll die. You take that big gulp of air, and dive again into the deep, working harder with each descent to get it right.

Princess Mousey

My youngest, known as Princess Mousey because of her ability to pick out the mouse on every page of GOODNIGHT MOON, turns 26 on the 24th. I can't believe she's that old! It seems like yesterday that she popped out so quickly, she landed on her head. Yes, you read that right. You've never seen so many people scramble so fast to grab a baby off the floor. I had no idea that contraction was going to be so effective, LOL I was just doing my thing, pacing the floor, trying to hurry things up.  Guess I succeeded.

The good news is, she's smart, funny, and a great daughter, sister and niece. Happy birthday, Princess Mousey!


Writers and Voice

So I'm back to watching American Idol. After being away for a few years, I'm pleasantly surprised. The judges, Keith Urban, Jennifer Lopez, and Harry Connick, Jr., are all insightful and unfailingly polite and kind. .   even to try-outers who don't deserve it. What I really like is how they try to help those who need a push in another direction.

What I've noticed, too, is how much they're swayed by a distinctive style, be it in the choice of outfit, how the hopefuls present themselves, and how they perform a song. Jennifer Lopez said tonight she was impressed with one try-outer's rendition of a familiar song, making it her own. They look for a unique package, one that's not mundane or "safe." Hmmm, makes me think of writers, and how they present themselves.

With us, it's called "voice." It's something that comes from deep within you, and you can either fight it (which never works), or you can throw it down and see where it takes you. Can you imagine Elmore Leonard writing in a style different from the one we have read for a long time now? Or Lee Child? There's that elusive quality that goes beyond good writing and great storytelling into the ephemeral that makes a writer stand out.

Not every writer with this unique quality will appeal to everyone. I'm going to quit reading a book now (which shall remain nameless, because it's well-reviewed and clearly a labor of love), because I can't stand the author's voice. Just rubs me the wrong way. The good news is, I'm not apathetic. The bad news is, I'm quitting on the book. Something I never do, by the way. But I have to give the author props for rising above the ho-hum.

So many books are workmanlike. Well crafted. Solid story. But they don't have that spark, that voice that tells me this author knows exactly who she is as a writer and isn't afraid to show it.

A Coup for the Duke

I've never done this before, but for some reason I felt like I should put up the first chapter of the new romance. Let me know what you think!


The tall, powerfully built man in deerskins stared at the polished brass knocker and hesitated.  The large townhouse presented its aristocratic face to the quiet street.  Few carriages would be about at this hour of the morning, for their owners generally slept late.  Freshly washed windows sparkled, the gray stones solid and unmarred by the harshness of a London winter rose three stories high.  Spring was wending its magic path here, in the wealthy section of London.  He glimpsed fresh hothouse flowers in a vase through one of the windows, a harbinger of those nature would force from the earth.  Straightening his shoulders, the man raised his arm and with one blunt finger touched the gleaming knocker on the front door. Nothing had changed about his London home, at least not outwardly.  Only he knew the sheer act of will that had forced him to come this far.
 His tanned hand, black tattoos across the wrist exposed at the end of the fringed sleeve, hesitated only briefly.  He dropped the brass handle with a solid push.
Valentine, the Duke of Devore, was home.
Stooping to pick up his sack, he hoisted the beaded and fringed deerskin to his shoulders.  It held all that remained of his life fur trapping in America, all that linked him to the freedom of the past five years.  His fingers tightened on the straps.
Felders answered the door, his hooked nose lifting just the right amount as he stared, eyeball to eyeball, with the tall, sun-darkened stranger with black hair sweeping his shoulders.  Trade beads in red and blue swirls and lines adorned his leathered shoulders, catching the weak London sun.  Felders’ eyebrows matched the angle of his nostrils as he gave the beggar a second glance. 
“If you require food, inquire at the rear entrance.  Cook will see to your needs.”  The large door began to swing shut.
Valentine jammed an arm between it and the jamb.  “Tell the Duchess the Duke has returned,” he snapped in clipped tones.  “And have someone get my chamber ready immediately.” Thrusting his pack into Felder’s stomach, he watched in satisfaction as the butler’s jaw fell.
“Your Grace?”  Felders never uttered a word in less than a stentorian tone, but these two sounded close to a mousey squeak.  “It can’t be.”
“Sorry to say, it is.  A bath too.  As quickly as you can arrange it.”  Valentine strode past the butler, his easy grace emphasized by his long, lithe figure.  But there was a bulk now to the shoulders, muscles in the arms, a powerful tilt to his head that hadn’t been there when he’d sailed for the Americas.  He paused inside for a second to glance at the London house he hadn’t allowed himself to think about for five years.  His mother had held court here all his life.  The memories weren’t pleasant, for she’d never loved him.  He wasn’t Simon, his elder brother, and she’d never let him forget it.
 His life was in America.  Not here.
The black and white tiles of the entrance way sparkled with new wax.  The wallpaper shone with gilt highlights.  Silver sconces held expensive beeswax candles.  Crepe didn’t shroud the ornate French mirror, Valentine noticed.  Mourning for his dead elder brother would have ended months ago, long before he received the letter at the trading post informing him that he must return to England to assume the ducal mantle.  He forced down the feeling of panic the news had engendered.
Housemaids scurried by the front hall, hands to their lips, eyes wide, some clutching aprons to their cheeks as if they feared a savage had been loosed among them.
“I don’t bite. I may lift a scalp or two, however, if I don’t get something to eat,” Valentine growled.  He flashed white teeth in a grimace that passed for a smile.  His teasing fell on ears which hadn’t heard his voice in so long, they still didn’t believe it was he. 
“Wickens, have cook prepare a tray to take up to his Grace’s chambers.  Trevor, set the fire in his rooms, Mary, carry up his Grace’s, um, luggage.”  Felders passed the deerskin bag to the youngest maid.  “I’ll tell her Grace you’re home.”
“No need.”  The Dowager Duchess, Lydia, descended the staircase, one pale hand on the banister the only sign she felt any shock at all at seeing her only surviving child.  Her silk morning gown rustled as everyone in the grand foyer held their breaths to see how mother would greet son. Many of the servants remembered clearly the days when she would have ignored him as if he were a floor beneath her feet.  A particularly dirty floor.
Valentine swept her a perfectly correct bow, the fringe on his sleeve fluttering with the gesture.  “Madam, my compliments.”
Floating to where he stood rooted, she presented him with one faintly powdered cheek.  “Don’t you know a civilized man never makes an appearance before noon? Or has your time among the savages robbed you of all your training in etiquette?”  A faint smile crossed her lips, more than Valentine had ever seen her bestow on him before.  As a child, he’d never been able to please her.  When he was an adolescent, she’d done all she could to make his life miserable.  He’d fought back the only way he could, with words aimed to hurt her and her favorite, Simon.
Valentine reined in the old urge to lash out at the woman who’d birthed him and who’d had no use for him until now, when the ducal heir was most unexpectedly dead.  “I can only hope,” he mocked.  “My time among the savages, as you call them, was most elucidating.”
One plucked eyebrow rose as his mother allowed him a score for that remark.  “Well, well, not so changed after all.”
“You would be amazed.”
The duchess turned to Felders.  “His Grace will have luncheon in my room.  Send for Mr. Weston’s assistant, and let me know when he arrives.”  She turned to Valentine.  “Shall we talk? I’m sure Cook will have your tray ready as soon as we leave everyone to get on with their work.  After you bathe, of course. You’ll need a new wardrobe, fashions have changed since you left us.”
With that subtle admonition, the dowager duchess cracked her invisible whip over her gawking servants.  The action that rippled from her command reminded Valentine of the Algonquin organizing for battle.   Valentine trailed her up the stairs, feeling the cold marble through the thin soles of his moccasins. Everything about the house bespoke of power, good taste, and an ancient bloodline.  Of which he was the last.  His mother may have possessed the coin that paid for the power and good taste, but she needed him to maintain the image of the ducal duchess.
Once into the dowager duchess’ powder blue and silver bedroom, Valentine waited until his mother had seated herself at her dressing table.  This room had been forbidden him as a child. Often, he’d wonder what games she played with Simon, as their laughter rode under the door into the hallway, where he lay on the floor, trying to peek through the crack into the magic world where he wasn’t allowed.  He’d braved crossing her several times, sneaking in when she was out, avoiding the servants who would tattle on him if they’d seen him touching her silver mirror, the azure silk of her bed hangings.  Had his father ever felt welcome in that room?  He’d wondered often, for his father the duke avoided his wife as assiduously as she, he. 
     Val almost touched the silken bed hangings, now a soft sea green with persimmon colored tassels.  She’d changed much since he’d left five years ago.  He wondered if the alterations were all on the surface.
Waving aside her maid, Lady Lydia picked up a gilt-backed brush and began to stroke her blonde hair.  He wondered if silver strands would show upon closer inspection.  She’d been young, seventeen, when Simon was born.  He’d come along six years later and she’d never spared him a glance from that moment forward.  Now she had to pay attention to him, damn her.
Her back was as straight as if she wore her stays under her dressing gown, her eyes in the mirror watching his face.  He schooled himself to show no emotion.
“Leave us,” Lydia commanded her maid.  The woman curtsied and backed from the room as if ordered from the presence of Prince George.  Valentine was aware her eyes never left him for an instant. What did the woman think, that he was going to strike his mother with a tomahawk?  Turning his back to the fire leaping in the grate, he graced the lady’s maid, Roberts he thought he remembered was her name, with his fiercest stare.  She squeaked, turned, and skipped from the bedroom.
“Honestly, Valentine, stop torturing the servants.  You haven’t been home ten seconds and you’re already behaving like a schoolboy.”
The smile that answered her didn’t come from a schoolboy.  “Just giving them what they expect.  There’d be nothing to discuss below stairs if I didn’t set everyone quaking.”
“Well, stop it.”  Lydia set the gilt-backed brush firmly on the dressing table.  Her still-beautiful green eyes surveyed her younger son mercilessly.  Spine as straight as a lodge pole, her figure still curvy, she was an impressive-looking woman, Valentine realized dispassionately.  Before he’d escaped to America, he’d seen as little as he could of his mother, who preferred the company of her husband and his heir.  America had been a relief that Valentine hadn’t known he’d craved until he was there.  Valentine refused to acknowledge her order.
“You took your time returning.”  Her voice soft as silk, she could have been discussing the weather, but Valentine could see the censure in her eyes.  Censure and dislike, after all this time.
“Many pardons, dearest mama.  Your missive, however, took several months to reach the trading post, and I didn’t receive it until many more months after that.”
“It really was quite thoughtless of you to go so far away.  Wouldn’t Italy have suited you better?”  Her green eyes ran from his moccasins to his head.  “At least you’d have returned better dressed.”
He refused to quake at the disdain he heard.  His shirt had been made by one of the supreme bead stitchers in the tribe, and he wore it with pride.  His history among the Algonquin could be read by those who knew how in the patterns of porcupine quill and colored glass.
“No, the American Indians with whom I’ve been living were more to my liking.”  He refused to say more about the tribe with which he’d become a blood brother, a respected warrior.
“At least you’ve filled out, become more of a ... man.  Weston shouldn’t have to pad your shoulders.” Pleased with her observation, she turned once more to her mirror and began to twist up a curl, which she pinned with studied accuracy. “We’ll have to hold a ball.  Something small and tasteful, not too elaborate.  It’d look as though you were celebrating Simon’s demise.  But large enough to show the ton you’ve come back, and you’re now the Duke of Devore.
Inwardly, Valentine shook with distaste at the thought of a ball.  He hated the social affairs that had sustained every waking hour of his father, then his brother.  Their neglect of the family properties was legendary, but their toilette and social standing had never suffered from lack of attention.  Or money.  The duchess’ money.
“The only reason I returned at all, mama, is to see if I can retrieve the Devore lands from complete and total ruin.  I know your estate supported father and Simon.  But I intend to act as the Duke of Devore should.  I’ll return to Hammersly tomorrow and have a talk with the estate agent.”  He thought he sounded calm, business-like.  He knew he’d inflame her with his plans, but he couldn’t hide them.  He still needed her, probably as much as she needed him.  They both knew it, and hated it.
“A waste of time, mon petit fils.”  A dab of rouge on the tip of one finger gently caressed the duchess’ lips.  “He’s here now.  I brought him to London when I didn’t hear from you, in the event the title would have to go to your imbecile of a cousin.”
Valentine’s eyes glinted.  “Then I’ll see him now.”
The duchess’ shrewd gaze slipped from her mirror to her son.  “I’d recommend dressing a bit more conventionally.  You’ll frighten the poor man into quitting.” 

     Valentine’s face betrayed none of his annoyance.  “Convention is the least of my concerns.  I’m sure he’s being adequately compensated to tolerate my presence as I am.”
     Pivoting silently on his deerskin moccasins, he crossed to the door with an effortless grace that had the duchess raising one eyebrow.
“He is.  Remember you’re the Duke of Devore now.  Please behave as such.”
“As if I could ever be allowed to forget.”  With a bow that reminded the duchess that he hadn’t forgotten his etiquette lessons, Valentine withdrew from her presence.   The chill in the corridor cooled his back, hot from the crackling fire in the grate. He’d forgotten how hot she kept her chambers.
 Shivering, he told himself it was the damp English spring that seeped into his bones with an oppression he couldn’t shake.
Winter snows in the mountains of America hadn’t been this cold.  Hardened to outdoor changes in climate, he’d seldom noted whether it was hot, damp, humid, or dry.  Now though, he longed for his buffalo robe and a bowl of hot pemmican stew as if it were the heart of a killing winter and his lodge the only place safe for anything without fur for covering and a hole in which to hide. 
His mother had never touched him.  Not a finger to his face to ascertain that it was truly he.  Not a peck on the cheek.  No embrace.  No smile of recognition.
He was the Duke of Devore, and that was all that mattered to the Dowager Duchess.  He couldn’t wait to see what she had planned for him. Because he was going to enjoy thwarting her more than he’d loved fur trapping in America. 

New Year's Day and a Bad Book

Technically, it's the 2nd, but I'm still on a roll, so it's the 1st in my world. We dragged ourselves  out from under the covers early so we could continue our annual tradition of attending an auction. Yes, we spend the day bidding on other people's unwanted items. As if we don't have enough stuff already.

It's always fun, even when we don't buy much, just from the people-watching aspect. Characters abound, from the guy in the work-worn overalls spending  BIG money on objects like a six foot bronze Indian figure, to the rodeo queen type goading her DH to bid on a four karat diamond ring.  I restrained myself, but barely. The check we wrote wasn't outrageous, she said sheepishly. It's just part of our family tradition.

On another note, I never throw books in the trash. I figure there's a book for every reader, so who am I to judge? Let me tell you, Fern Michaels did herself no favors by selling her 1999 book to Zebra for a reprint. They renamed it Christmas at Tanglewood (I think, I've tried to scrub it from my memory), with a shiny Christmasy cover, and I fell for it.  Not only was it horribly dated, with a few feeble sentences to try to bring it into the 21st century, but it had nothing to do with Christmas except the setting. And worst of all, it was a bad romance. Cardboard cliched characters. Just awful.

However, I learned a good lesson. I am NOT going to do any re-dos of my older books unless I am sure they're current and among my best work.

Oh, there's another auction this Saturday. . .maybe I can put off getting the Santas back in the attic. Right now they're massed on the living room sofa, planning a revolt.

This time of the year

December is a busy month at our house. My daughter has a birthday, and my dad's was on the 20th. I was going to post yesterday about what would have been his 92nd birthday, but we got busy doing things we've done in the past on that day. It happened by accident - we found ourselves driving around looking at the houses lit with a zillion lights and full of Christmas décor, remembering how we did it on his birthday in the recent past. We talked about his dog, Leroy, who passed away suddenly this year, and how the Beagle, and Rebel, the Golden Retriever, were vying for his affection in the next realm. It was a good time. Then we drove by his old house and were so pleased to see it decked out with lights and looking very festive. My dad disliked decorating for Christmas, and we would have to hang decorations in spite of him.

I found a picture of our house from 1958-1961, on Okinawa. My mother had a Japanese artist build and paint a huge plywood  Santa (with Japanese eyes) on a sleigh, complete with reindeer, to anchor on top of the roof. A typhoon swept through one Christmas and threw the whole kit and caboodle down the street. I remember my dad chasing it in the lashing rain as it went end over tea kettle. As I remember, that was the year the scrawny Christmas tree wasn't up to mother's standards, so my dad had to drill holes and glue in branches from another tree, then wire them to other branches so they'd hold the ornaments. Looking back, I can see why my dad wasn't overly fond of decorating for the holidays, LOL.

Christmas is so fast this year, I don't have a handle on it. I've resolved to be less stressed and realize it'll happen with or without my fussing about it. After all, the important thing is that we're all together and feeling very grateful to be so. And no one has to chase a plywood Santa down the street in the pouring rain.

I haven't run away...

Not yet, at any rate. Life has been, hectic, is the polite way to phrase it, I think. I have other, more pithy descriptions, but I'll rein myself in. It is, after all, getting to be that time when Santa is making her list. Don't need to add to the "naughty" column(s).

I'm so unprepared for Christmas, it's almost funny. Now, however, I understand last minute online shopping (with free shipping, too!). I made a foray to the mall, gritting my teeth and praying for a parking spot, only to find plenty of vacant spots. No festive crowds spending money, either! What gives? Has everyone else discovered the magic of online? I think I see a trend here.  (Sometimes I'm not the sharpest crayon in the box.) And honestly, there wasn't much available to make me whip out my credit card, either. A sweater here, some stocking stuffers there, but not the Big Gift array I was expecting.

And when did Barnes and Noble turn into a massive toy store? Just try to find a book! The helpful sales person assured me she could order the ones on my list, and a lightbulb exploded over my head. No thanks, I countered, I'll get them myself online. I didn't add they'd probably be cheaper.

By the way, bought the Trace Adkins Celtic Christmas album. Just a joy, is all I can say. Classic carols with cool arrangements. Helps a bit with the wishy-washy Christmas spirit deficit.

Hope you all are feeling merrier than I, and that you have a lovely Christmas.